Talk to myself

it's been five days since musywil of FLP Jogja. I truly became a neet now. I was lazying around this whole week. And worrying too much about what will I do after this. Well, for the first time after entering college, I dont have any structural position in some organization. I started to realize that being busy is one of His blessing that often forgotten.

Too much spare time is not good for your healthy, though. -_-

And it's been two days since I got dyspepsia. while I'm enduring the ache of my stomach, I keep starring at the blank page of document on my laptop. I'm drowning in my own thought, my own anxious. worrying about what i should do after this. worrying about the LPJ which I should revise. worrying about the data set which i abandoned this past two weeks. worrying about the life after graduation.

Even though I remember every session I took with my psychologist, but it's not easy to overcome the anxious, to stop the thought of being useless. to stop being a perfectionist. :(

Well, I should stop this -unrealistic-personal-rules within me.

Okey, let's think. I have the data set to finish. I have halaqah to care. And remember that I just joined an online institute.See? I'm not useless at all. I still have the will to learn. So dont stop now just because my irrational worry. Stop being so perfectionist. no one think that you're useless, it's just you. the one with that thought is you. You should treasure yourself more. just like yous said to one of your sister last week. Because, no one will treasure you, except yourself.

the thought is just the thought. the thought is not a fact. (it's the words from my psychologist).

So, your thought is not a fact. And your thought is controlling your feeling. if you stop overthinking, you stop being anxious.

your thought is just a thought. the thought is not a fact.

semangat! mungkin semuanya nggak perlu dilawan, cuma perlu diterima, dan berjuang bersama dengan segala anxious yang dipunya.

(sorry for bad grammar, i just finished some chapters of online comic, and it influenced me to using english wkwkwk .-.)