Lately

Lately I've been so scared for writing something. It seems I'm having paranoia for being watched or talked. That's why I decided to make my blog private, so that I still can write my thought.

I thought so ..

But, it seems I'm afraid of my own thought. I'm afraid that I will find myself worse. I'm afraid to admit my own feelings. Thus, I'm afraid that people my know what lies in my heart and my head.

I'm sorry for being worse. I'm sorry for not being better. I;m sorry for being ugly. I'm sorry, myself, for having this anxiety and inferior complex.

I, actually, wanted to life beautifully. I wanted to be a beautiful girl, physically, spiritually, mentally.

Can I?